I recently began watching a show that I heard about on NPR one day. It's a show called Mr. Robot, and it's actually pretty cool!
It has a kind dark vibe to it but it was thoroughly entertaining. The music is interesting too; it reminded of the music from Portal 2 when I first heard it. Take a listen below.
This is just one song from Portal 2. They obviously have their differences but I think they both carry a similar style of tune. There are lots of other songs from Portal 2, and if you've listened to the full soundtrack you might agree with me that the themes of the game are similar to this song at least.
Mr. Robot is interesting because you start out looking at the story from one direction, then it flips around and you seem to be watching the show from a complete opposite direction. There's a lot of anarchical themes throughout the show, and deals a lot with programming. I don't know much (or anything...) about programming personally but it is all still very entertaining.
The main character, Elliot, is played by actor Rami Malek. His role in the show won him an Emmy for Outstanding Lead Actor In A Drama Series.
It's definitely worth watching!
Sunday, September 25, 2016
Saturday, September 3, 2016
After all these years...
I had forgotten that I even had a blog up until tonight. Normally I wouldn't put my feelings out in public but after years and years of recording my life in my personal journal, I feel like I just need to put my mind out there. I doubt many people will read this but I still put it out there just the same.
Things have been hard lately.
I have a hard time summing my feelings up in words, but I'll do the best I can.
I gravitate between rage and sorrow on a daily basis, unsure how to handle myself. My sister recently called me a walking contradiction and that statement struck me hard. You see I have a really hard time trying to find a sense of stability in my life. I seem to jump from one feeling to the next in a fleeting moment.
I was in love once. I thought we would spend our lives together, but I was delusional. We were never on the same page, and I was always trying to push things. I thought if I tried hard enough I could make you love me. But the whole thing broke me. Now I submit to a daily regimen of antidepressants and the heartbreaking memory of what was. I think about when we held each other and I clung to the possibility of never ending happiness. Then, I wouldn't have believed that I would eventually spend my personal time alone, watching sad movies and crying as Rose says "I'll never let you go, Jack." No amount of music in the world can fill the hole that was left. I have literally lost a part of myself since you were in my life.
I have an extensive list of songs I listen to when I get like this, and below is a sampling of some of those songs. There are two categories of songs that are included; the sad songs and the rage songs. I tend to go back and forth between both feelings rather frequently.
The one side:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=csw3zdqRuOU
-My Everything
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tuxwisuHJ7U
-Colorblind
https://youtu.be/KQu8FOjJXdI?t=1m32s
-I Love You
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8wKU-jaus6w
-Manhattan
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=feZ3acHNxXg
-The Harold Song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJWIbIe0N90
-Who Knew
https://youtu.be/tFEkErGUjCU?t=10s
- On My Own
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eM213aMKTHg
- Need You Now
https://youtu.be/Ahha3Cqe_fk?t=20s
- The One That Got Away
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l38MAcuDblk
- Over For Good
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nabO_UXb6MM
- A Fond Farewell
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sxaq2Hn3U_k
- God Knows I Tried
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HPam_3D9eXU
- Hello (Evanescence, not Adele)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ho9xM9n2USA
- No Good In Goodbye
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_1aF54DO60
- Young and Beautiful
- Mostly this one just breaks my heart every time I hear it, and reminds me how tragic life is.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JBrLgmjkeuQ
- Bumper Cars
The other side of it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RrA-R5VHQs
- Call Me When You're Sober (Specifically at 2:20. I feel like this sums the whole thing up perfectly)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T4tefnQGtNY
- Hell No
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I_NPCEeyrmg
- Love Into the Light
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OUe3oVlxLSA
- Gonna Get Over You
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6bAPlojfgO0
- Pity Party
- Melanie Martinez is a badass bitch, and I love her music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b7esfC0bDVU
- So I Dance
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8QYxmpuyxg
- My Happy Ending
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5ArpRWcGe0
- Dark Side
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cVLF0G3v_0U
- Where Do We Go
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wvzfOyW0ZMo&feature=youtu.be&t=1m31s
- Take Me Home
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZhQOvvV45w
- Good Life
https://youtu.be/X9YMU0WeBwU?t=47s
-YoΓΌ and I
Someday I hope to find more stability and peace. For now, I have my cats to keep me company.
Things have been hard lately.
I have a hard time summing my feelings up in words, but I'll do the best I can.
I gravitate between rage and sorrow on a daily basis, unsure how to handle myself. My sister recently called me a walking contradiction and that statement struck me hard. You see I have a really hard time trying to find a sense of stability in my life. I seem to jump from one feeling to the next in a fleeting moment.
I was in love once. I thought we would spend our lives together, but I was delusional. We were never on the same page, and I was always trying to push things. I thought if I tried hard enough I could make you love me. But the whole thing broke me. Now I submit to a daily regimen of antidepressants and the heartbreaking memory of what was. I think about when we held each other and I clung to the possibility of never ending happiness. Then, I wouldn't have believed that I would eventually spend my personal time alone, watching sad movies and crying as Rose says "I'll never let you go, Jack." No amount of music in the world can fill the hole that was left. I have literally lost a part of myself since you were in my life.
I have an extensive list of songs I listen to when I get like this, and below is a sampling of some of those songs. There are two categories of songs that are included; the sad songs and the rage songs. I tend to go back and forth between both feelings rather frequently.
The one side:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=csw3zdqRuOU
-My Everything
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tuxwisuHJ7U
-Colorblind
https://youtu.be/KQu8FOjJXdI?t=1m32s
-I Love You
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8wKU-jaus6w
-Manhattan
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=feZ3acHNxXg
-The Harold Song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJWIbIe0N90
-Who Knew
https://youtu.be/tFEkErGUjCU?t=10s
- On My Own
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eM213aMKTHg
- Need You Now
https://youtu.be/Ahha3Cqe_fk?t=20s
- The One That Got Away
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l38MAcuDblk
- Over For Good
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nabO_UXb6MM
- A Fond Farewell
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sxaq2Hn3U_k
- God Knows I Tried
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HPam_3D9eXU
- Hello (Evanescence, not Adele)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ho9xM9n2USA
- No Good In Goodbye
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_1aF54DO60
- Young and Beautiful
- Mostly this one just breaks my heart every time I hear it, and reminds me how tragic life is.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JBrLgmjkeuQ
- Bumper Cars
The other side of it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RrA-R5VHQs
- Call Me When You're Sober (Specifically at 2:20. I feel like this sums the whole thing up perfectly)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T4tefnQGtNY
- Hell No
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I_NPCEeyrmg
- Love Into the Light
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OUe3oVlxLSA
- Gonna Get Over You
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6bAPlojfgO0
- Pity Party
- Melanie Martinez is a badass bitch, and I love her music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b7esfC0bDVU
- So I Dance
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8QYxmpuyxg
- My Happy Ending
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5ArpRWcGe0
- Dark Side
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cVLF0G3v_0U
- Where Do We Go
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wvzfOyW0ZMo&feature=youtu.be&t=1m31s
- Take Me Home
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZhQOvvV45w
- Good Life
https://youtu.be/X9YMU0WeBwU?t=47s
-YoΓΌ and I
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